Heart is a despicable little thing. It get’s out of hand every single time I let it loose a little. Made a huge mistake, I let my guards down and it fluttered out of it’s gilded cage. Out in the unprecedented territories. Gosh I hate it when it does that. Curious little thing ends up getting hurt every single time. And I end up having to put band aids over all the bruises on it as It winces and cries out in pain while I cuss it for attempting to leave it’s cage. Heart is so selfish. It doesn’t understand the collateral damage it leaves behind every single time it escapes. It doesn’t understand it is me, who has to clean up the mess it makes. Selfish little thing, only thinks of itself. So here I am again, putting back together the pieces it broke in the process, trying to suture it back with minimal scarring. I have to admit I’m becoming quiet good at this, fixing the broken pieces over and over again. But I’ve found a way to keep heart in it’s gilded cage forever now. Yeah, then heart won’t be able to escape. This fickle heart will soon know it’s place.
Broken creatures are often labelled as selfish… Maybe because they are. In a totally unselfish way.
Once a soul is broken, it is very rare that somebody sees it, somebody fixing it is even rarer. Broken souls are a wonder, they are the most resilience creatures that can ever exist On earth. You see the thing is they are lost but they have so much radiance it illuminates whichever path they pass through. They leave their mark.
Lost where you ask? Themselves of course. Since nobody else can uncover the mystery they are, they themselves try to figure it out. Putting together the puzzle, broken pieces that are. It’s like a Maze within their minds and souls. They are in a constant struggle to find a home where they belong. In the process they become lost, in search. They are forever trying to understand the puzzle, that is their heart. Since nobody else can do it, they have to do it for their self. It’s not an easy task. It requires patience, resilience and love. Love which is often lacking on their part. Love which is over flowing for others but non-existent when it’s time to give themselves back.
They are selfish, yes. Because they are so lost within themselves to ever see there are people around who might be willing to give them love. The Love; they deserve, The love; they need.
So be good crazy hearts, let’s give this love one more try.
Describe the last time you were surprised by the intensity of a feeling you had about something, or were surprised at how strongly you reacted to something you thought wouldn’t be a big deal.
The other day I was goofing around with my friends, we are seven in number, quite a large group we have, yeah I know!
Along the way, just between the lines, playfully, between cracking jokes one of my very good friend said that I’m a little clever (She meant that NOT in a good way). I was a little taken aback by her revelation.
I obviously ignored it superficially but it was on my mind all day long, it still is and I think it always will be. She is kind of one of my best friends from that group and for her to think of me like that was a surprise (and not a good one!). I’ve to admit it did hurt me deeply. I’as really surprised by how intense I felt about it.
It is true to some extent that friends can tell you things that you may miss in your personality. They can help you to be a better person. They can help you to improve yourself.
But it is a fact as well that, who knows you better than yourself??? No matter how close the other person is to you, they can’t know you better than yourself. If you look a little closely, dig a little deeper within yourself you’ll see the real you. You’ll see who you really are. No matter what others say, you know yourself better than others.
I’ve always wondered this all my life, Why do people always fail to see the Real Me? Yes I admit I can be a little quite at times, I don’t express my feelings that vigorously, my words are sometimes not that explainable and my actions are not that understandable but they are always with a good intent in my heart. That doesn’t give anybody a right to judge me. Does it?
Nobody in my life has ever been able to see the Real Me, Except maybe my dad to some extent and my best friend ‘S’. But why do other people fail to see the real me???
Yes I can “seem” to be a little distant at times, I can “seem” to come out as being cold but why don’t they look around that exterior and see ME. The compassionate, kind and a very sensitive Me.
The Me who cries about as little thing as seeing a frail boy selling flowers on the road. The Me who cries on watching a beautiful scenery. The Me who cries when somebody calls her selfish.
The Me who cares about showing kindness. The Me who cares about their every problem. The Me whose heart aches for when I see them suffering. The Me who cries for them in the dark.
The Me who may not show them how much I love them but really care for them deep down in my heart.
Is it so much to ask to see the real me? Is it that hard?
I’ve come to a conclusion though, It is always going to hurt me when people will judge me, when people will fail to see the real me. But I can’t really do anything about it.
What matters is that I’m happy with who I am. I’m glad that when I look inside myself I see a good person. I see exactly the person I wanna be.
I guess that gives me hope. Maybe someday, someone will come along who will see me for who I am. Take a one look at me and understand all the things unsaid.
But that day, that someone has not come yet. That day is not today. Today I’ll be hurting…
I guess we all are misunderstood one way or another and the major reason for that is because we are selfish creatures.we are hardwired to think about only ourselves and our own survival in this world. We are judgmental , all we do all day long is judge others without a single glance in our own direction.
In our daily lives we come across many people who are usually really nice to us but once in a while they are rude too. They are…well not so nice at some moments . So rather than asking about whats wrong with them , the very first thing we do, is judge !
All we can think about is how dare he\she talk like that with me, i am so not going to talk to him\her anymore. I am going to treat him\her the same way from now on and so on…….
But just for a moment have we EVER stopped and thought to ourselves “if he\she’s treating me rudely today which he\she doesn’t normally do , there must be something wrong , God knows what he\she’s going through internally, i should stick around and make sure that he\she’s alright” . I don’t think most of us have ever done that. why ? Obviously because we are too self-absorbed to think about anything other than ourselves !
we want people to understand all our problems but we are not willing to do the same for them.
But it doesn’t mean we can’t change . As i said in my previous blog post, Change Is Inevitable and if we use this change to positively impact our lives, we can become much more caring and much more considerate of other people’s problems.
So next time if someone is rude to you, or more quite than usual, rather than taking it as a GO AWAY sign , stop for a minute and contemplate your decision about how you want to handle the situation . The easiest way to do that is to “Put yourself in other person’s shoes” and deal with the situation with cool head rather than like a marshmallow on fire !
Treat others in a way you want to be treated.