Say It Like It Is

Daily Prompt: I Believe

Tell us three things that you believe in your heart to be true. Tell us three things you believe in your heart to be false.

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Things I consider true or right to my heart are:

(I know I’ve mentioned this quiet a lot before but as this prompt requires I have to say this again.)

1-There is no such thing as accidents.

Everything happens for a reason. Each and everything that happens leads to that one point in your life which is supposed to happen in the first place. Which leads me to my second point which is:

2-Believe and Faith

For one to believe in the first point you have got to have believe and faith. Faith in the higher providence that everything is going to be fine and Believe in yourself that YOU can do it. You’ll make through it all.

3-People do change

I have seen people change. Whether for better or worse that’s a separate discussion but people DO change. Human being is a very strong animal, If we try we can turn our life, attitude or personality around a 360 degree.

Things I consider False or bad:

1-There is no such thing as personal choice.

What’s wrong is wrong and what’s right is right. No compromises on that. You can try to go over it in any way you want but it doesn’t change the fact that its wrong.

2- You have no right to Judge a person
Judging is wrong no matter what. I have been a victim of this and I know very well how it feels to be judged without being aware of the full situation or information. I get it, its in human nature to judge, you can’t deny that but to judge a person and BASING YOUR OPINION on it is wrong unless you are aware of the whole picture.

3-Doing drugs is just wrong

I have seen people explain to me oh I do drugs because I’m going through some shit in my life. And usually, most of the time “That Shit” is not as big of a deal as they are making it out to be. I’ve been through a lot in my life and I’ve seen people go through much worse but they are still holding on. Drugs are just a way to avoid problems, and avoiding problems doesn’t make them go away. They just keep getting piled up.  I know everybody has a different way to deal with a particular problem and I totally respect that but If there is a healthier way to deal with it, then why not choose that?
I know it takes a lot of effort but drugs are never the right answer.

I know daily prompt asked for three things but this matter is very near and true to my heart so I’m going to say something very briefly about it:

Religion doesn’t kill people. People kill people and they just need something or someone to blame for their sadistic ways. I’ve heard people say “Oh if there was no religion there would be peace everywhere in the world.” If you seriously believe that, you are the most naive person ever. There is always going to be greed for money and land to fight for, which is the most basic reason why countries are fighting each other, why people are killing people. Do you really think if religion wasn’t there it would go away??? Joseph Stalin was religion-less, did it stop him from killing thousands of people?
It’s not at all about having a religion or not, you can be an atheist or belong to any religion whatsoever, I don’t have a problem with that but please don’t blame religion for this world’s twisted ways.

And I want to end my post with this line said by someone:
“We are sent on this earth with a purpose. Life is a test. And all of these things are its questions. Ever imagined a test without questions ?”

It’s All About Trying…

Daily Prompt: What giant step did you take where you hoped your leg wouldn’t break? Was it worth it, were you successful in walking on the moon, or did your leg break?

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Honestly speaking I have never been a big risk taker. The reason why it is so is not because I don’t like to take risks or I don’t want to take risks. It’s just that I never had a moment in my life so far where I had to take one. My life had been smooth in this department at least and I’m thankful for that. Everything I have done in my life, any milestones, any occasions or whatever it was almost like it was pre-planned by God. I never really had a moment of doubt about what profession I want to choose or in which line of studies I want to go. A little confused ,Yes sure, but everything  did work out for me in the end. A little confusion is part of life we just have to find our own way to deal with it.

For me it was almost like God had laid down a rail track for me and I like a train took that path and it lead me to exactly where I am supposed to be. It’s all about having FAITH in Him and Believing in Yourself .
Having faith that everything that happens is for a reason and for your own good. And Believe in yourself that YOU can do it. With the right amount of determination and effort everything is possible.

But the most important part is to believe that if a particular thing hasn’t worked out for you, it’s because it is for your own good and something better is on your way. Learn to LET GO and look forward to a new adventure in life. I know it’s not as easy as it sounds, but you gotta try.

Because Trying is all we can do…

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Release Me

Daily Prompt: Release Me
http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2013/10/20/daily-prompt-free/

Tell us about the blog post you were most nervous to publish — and what it was like to set it free.
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I’ve a hard time talking about my feelings but through writing, I’ve found a way to release. I still have a hard time writing about somethings but Well its a start…maybe someday I’ll be courageous enough to write about that stuff.

So far there are two blog posts I had a hard time writing about and was a little nervous if I should write about it or not.

One of them was the Battle with myself, why I was nervous about writing it was because that was the first time I came close to hurting myself. Sure I had thoughts about it before but I never came so close to do it. One of the reasons was because I had strong faith. My faith made me hold on to the glimmer of light and hope. But in those days I was a little out of faith, I’ve to admit I became close to becoming depressed, maybe I did become depressed. And in that slight moment of discretion I became too close to hurting myself.
To be honest I wasn’t courageous enough to do it (People keep telling me that it doesn’t mean I was a coward, It means I was strong enough to resist it, but I don’t think that was the case. If I even had a ounce of courage in me, I would have cut myself for sure. I was that depressed.)
Well anyways, I’m glad I wasn’t able to do it. Thanks God, my weakened faith started to get stronger. That EPISODE of depression faded away. I’m glad I was able to write about it and release my anger through that.

The second post has to be Rest In peace series (part 1 & part 2). I wasn’t nervous about writing this post, but It was hard for me to write about it. Coping with death is not easy. There was no one I could talk to, I’m not very vocal about how I feel so family wasn’t on my list to talk to about it. My best friend couldn’t be here at that time. So to be honest I couldn’t wait to write about it. The very first thing I did when I came back from the funeral was to write about it. I wanted to get it all out. To tell someone about every detail about it. But to tell the whole world about it was the hard part. I was unsure how people would react to it. I couldn’t bear anything bad being said about that, because that post was very close to me.

But eventually I did write about it. I did publish it. I was able to get it all out. Most importantly, as i wrote the Part 2: Peace Of The Present Moment , Everything became clearer and clearer to me, I was able to get a good lesson out of it. I felt more at peace with myself. Obviously it still hurts to think about my niece, it still hurts every time I look at my brother and see his sad smile but life goes on…We have to move on and as I said before, Learn to live in peace of the present moment.
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EXHALE

Daily Prompt: Exhale
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Tell us about a time when everything seemed to be going wrong — and then, suddenly, you knew it would be alright.

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There are moments in our lives which define us, which makes us who we are, which shape our personalities and pave the way for rest  of our life.

But this doesn’t have to be just a moment, it can be a collection of moments, collection of experiences, mistakes and lessons.
The key to surviving all of it is to “Just keep going”.

As I always say just have “Have Faith & Believe In Yourself

Have FAITH that everything is going to be alright and BELIEVE that you’ll make through it all.
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When you breathe, you inhale and you exhale, but every single time that you do that, you are a little bit different from the one before. We are always changing. And it is important to know that there are some changes you can’t control and that there are others that you can. So just go with the flow.
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Always remember that, Things fall part so that other things can fall together.
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Just keep your head straight and try to find sense in things. Everything Happens For A Reason.
I firmly believe that, There is no such things as accidents.
Every breathe you take, every decision you make, every step you take ultimately leads you to your destiny.

So, Breathe, Inhale and exhale because:
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A Battle With Myself

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As i stood in my bathroom holding the blade in my hand, turning it over and over again between my fingers, occasionally glancing at my reflection in the mirror, the person who was staring back at me wasn’t really…ME.
Because ME-the old me would have never even thought about doing something like that. The old me found it disgusting and messed up. Then how…why did i come to this?

It wasn’t like i was going to suicide or something, i just wanted to cut a little, see a little blood come pouring out of it and maybe the pain of that will overcome the pain i was feeling due to messed up events in my life. I just wanted  to stop that pain by inflicting myself with the other kind of pain because it was getting too hard for me to bear.

I’ve been through a lot in my life, I’ve spent most of my childhood crying , at least thats the only thing i remember of it. Its not like i haven’t seen any happiness in my life at all. I’ve been blessed with so many things but problems have always been part of my life as well and they still are. I guess i am just tired now. In most real and literal sense, TIRED !
I just want PEACE in my life, i want all the shit to be over. i have reached my breaking point. i can’t….i can’t suffer anymore. Its too much to bear.

Holding the blade in between my fingers i started to contemplate if i really wanted to do this…to be honest i started to wonder if i actually had the courage to do this. I pressed the blade just a little on my arm, not too hard. Pressed again and again. No blood came out.

Then i realized…i was afraid to do it….i wasn’t strong enough….my will power wasn’t that strong….i was a coward…wasn’t i ?

I just couldn’t bring myself to harm myself. So, I put the blade back where it belonged not leaving any evidence of me touching it.

Held the washbasin tightly with both hands, bowed my head down and cried. I just kept crying, crying and crying  for everything that happened to me since my childhood up until now. I prayed as i cried.
Prayed for forgiveness, prayed for tranquility, prayed for inner peace and calmness and put everything in HIS hands.

Washed my face and came out of the bathroom like nothing out of ordinary happened in there.  And waited for my faith to set in again as I seem to have run out of it for some time now.