Well Well Well….

Uhem *Clears Throat*
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So, Uhem, What’s up Ladies and Gents?!!
tumblr_lvtqujHmBv1qjabl6o1_500I know I know, What are y’all thinking…Yes, I’m alive. Barley made it out from the other end but yeah alive.

So where was I all this time?

*scratches head*

Wellllll….I wish I had a perfectly good explanation for it…I sat here thinking for the longest time to come up with a perfect explanation but there isn’t any, to be honest. Or maybe there is I just can’t put it to words. I just needed time and space to clear my head, or so I thought. One day I just decided to get away from everything connected to this blog, any related accounts, everything. So I did. Why I didn’t inform beforehand? Well I just came out from hiatus like what? A week or two ago from this? It just felt inappropriate to go again and make a big deal out of it all. I challenged myself to be away for one week only, just to set a realistic goal, then I found out I can do this so it just extended as finals came up and now how long has it been? One month and 20 days? Well who was counting anyways *Puft*

I can say I had final exams, but those were way later in the start of February, January was a whirlwind too. I didn’t expect 2015 to be awesome or good to me, All I wanted was for it to be better than 2014 at least. Guess what? It proved to be way more shittier than 2014 and it’s just the start of the year. Hah! What can I say…JUST-MY-FUCKING-LUCK ! -_-

(This post is going to have shit load of sarcasm because that’s how I feel since my life has been unicorns shooting rainbows out of their assess since the day this year started, please notice the happiness dripping out of my words! ^.^ )

So did this break from blogging do me any good? Aiiiinnnn, Not so much. I’m stuck right where I was before, same old same old. Except now I have some more shit for me to whine about here. Hola!!! SO EXCITED -__-

Screaming_internallyLet the whining begin:

I worked my ass off for finals. I think it’s safe to say I haven’t studied so hard in my life before. I’m used to sacrificing my sleep for exams, but usually that’s just a week before the exam and during the exam season but this time around I started prepping three full weeks beforehand. I swear to God sitting from 3 am to 6 pm and onwards continuously in the same spot studying like you are a donkey for so many weeks is such a great feeling! Like honestly I wouldn’t even believe myself but time flies by when you sit with a course book in front of you at 3 am with so much to study and suddenly it’s 6 pm and whatt??!! I have been sitting at the same fucking spot for so long??? I have developed acute lumbar back pain which I’m sure is ready to turn chronic If I don’t start taking care of it.

Not to mention the compliments I’ve gotten on my dark circles, “Hey your Mascara/Eye Liner is running down your eyes”

Me: *Looks in the mirror* And to my absolute horror, “Oh These….are actually my dark circles.”  That is how deep they have impinged themselves on my face that now it seems like makeup has run down my eyes. Another awesome feeling to have! #SoGrateful! :’) (Girls, any good concealers you are willing to recommend here would be of great help 😉 )

Just a week before my finals were about to start, I got ghastly sick. I have never been this sick in my life before. Either it was my mental exhaustion taking a physical toll on me or someone did voodoo on me for sure. Also I got to know how fucking great it feels to throw up. Believe it or not I had not vomited since I was very very little, totally forgot how It felt, but hey life was like “what, you forgot? Puft, Let me remind you bitch” So then that started. (Well it was partially my fault, took a heavy antibiotic with an almost empty stomach. In my defense, I said ‘Almost’ not completely empty.)

What? You think it ends there? Oh no that was just the start of my health decline graph. As I have never been so sick in my life before, let alone during exams, and that DURING FINALS, I just could not afford to be sick, I had no choice but to keep studying, no adequate rest and shit so I had to take bunch of pills to keep myself going. I had not taken so many pills in my life before as I had to take in one go at one time during the day in the past few weeks. Couple of 650 mg’s antibiotics against fever, cold, sore throat and whatnot. Then just a day before my Biochemistry exam I had severe respiratory congestion. #FeelingBlessed :’)

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But hey you can’t die since you have exam the very next day ! 🙂

I could not breathe and I totally thought I was gonna die or worst not being able to give the exam the next day which I worked so hard for. Anyways I did give the exam somehow, To be honest it’s still a little blur though, Just between you and me,  I think it’s because I was a bit high from all the pills.

So what I have ended up with is a gag reflex of a two years old. My Gag reflex has become so strong I can throw up on a drop of a hat now, like seriously.  Oh and what a marvelous feeling it is to have experienced after so long and so frequently now! Just like oozing out rainbows ! Yaeyyyy for that! \o/ #SweetLife -_-

So throughout this time I was bound to have number of mental breakdowns which I would categorize as follows:

#1 Absolutely Out-Of-Hand Emotions

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Absolutely Out-Of-Hand Emotions

#2 Questioning the Higher Providence

Questioning the Higher Providence

Questioning the Higher Providence

#3 Stage of Acceptance

Stage of Acceptance

Stage of Acceptance

#4 The most Dangerous of them all: Meredith Breakdown!

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Still stuck on this stage.

Oh and that’s only tip of the iceberg shit that happened during the time I was gone. I’d rather skip the other shit filled details in my life that happened along the way, they are not half as fun to write about. So in a nutshell I’m completely and utterly, physically, more so mentally exhausted by now.


THE BEST THING THOUGH:

I opened my blog after so long aaaaaaaaaaaandddddd
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A huge thanks to  Jithin, Nad , Rob, Upasana for checking up on me while I was away by leaving such sweet and concerning comments for me to read when I came back.

Trent, Thank you for buying Chords of Life and updating me about it!

Saadia, thank you for the Real Neat Blog Award.

Thankssss to Maryam, for joining me on my blogging journey and leaving so many beautiful and heart warming comments. Welcome to all the other new readers who have joined in and followed. I’ll meet you up on your blogs soon ❤

A special thanks to Maria, Bhakti and Kruti for keeping me sane and as a constant support behind the curtains.

There are so many comments I have got to reply to, Just let me get back on my blogging feet, I’ll reply soon and start catching up on what you guys have been up to on your blogs as well! It’s not entirely possible for me to catch up on each and every one of your posts since the past month and more, so please feel free to leave a link to any of the old posts you might  want me to give a read, I would love to check them out!

I hope you guys would forgive me for this unannounced break. See ya soon ❤ ❤

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Don’t forget I LOVE YOUUUU all…!!!

Look who’s back? Back…Again!

Wohoooooooooo !!!! I have no idea how to make a grand entry into this world of majestic blogging….AGAIN! So let’s have a mini dance party and here are some dance gifs to help you with some inspirational moves !

P.S try to look a little less retarded than these guys below.

                                                                     *CUE MUSIC*

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I’m not sure if this guy is having an epileptic seizure or is he actually dancing?

I don't even know what to call this.... :/

I don’t even know what to call this…. :/

And here is Will Smith failing miserably at Moon walking...But hey YOU can do better.. I believe in you !

And here is Will Smith failing miserably at Moon walking…But hey YOU can do better.. I believe in you !

Then we have 'The Pelvic Thrust' : Making people uncomfortable since its origin ! YOU ARE WELCOME.

Then we have ‘The Pelvic Thrust’ : Making people uncomfortable since its origin !
YOU ARE WELCOME.

No dancing is complete, Without dancing on the table ! Get up there people !

No dancing is complete without dancing on the table. What are y’all waiting for? Get up their people !

AAAaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!! SO in short this is how excited I am for being back to blogging ! ^_^

AAAaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!
SO in short this is how excited I am for being back to blogging ! ^_^

Now that we have our mini dance party and excited screaming let’s come back to discussing some changes. After One and a half month of final exams which were an absolute torture I couldn’t wait to get back to blogging. I just noticed my last post was on Jun 13, 2014. so It’s been almost 3 months since I left my baby here  and all of you ! *starts sobbing*

I’m so sorry! *starts crying hysterically*

Some morphine would work perfectly

Some morphine would work perfectly fine

Nothing a dose of morphine can’t fix ! I feel much better now. I’ve exactly 30 days to catch up on blogging before my new semester starts and I’ll be caught up in the whirlwind of same hectic routine. You’ll be seeing a lot of changes on my blog. Starting with the theme/layout. I’m thinking of changing it, although I changed it like 6 months ago but those were the darker days thus the dark theme. I’m not completely out of it but I’ve come out much better than before. I’m gonna try to make it a bit cheery and happy so bear with me as I make some changes. Feel free to give me some feedback on it too as I look forward to it. It will mean a lot

Coming to the content of blog, I’ll be writing and sharing pretty much everything, meaning I’m not going to stick to one genre. There will be humor, poetry and some pretty depressing shit so If you are looking for something specific this blog is probably not the right place for you. If you like to read just humor or only the serious stuff you can just skip reading the stuff you don’t like.I’ll also be introducing some new categories and segments. I thought of making a separate blog for sharing serious stuff but the thing is I can barely keep up with one let alone two. So In short this blog is going to be about everything. I hope you guys don’t mind.

Last but not least, The most important thing, out pouring support from everyone was overwhelming. I can’t express how incredibly thankful I am for all of you. The ‘checking up on me’ messages and leaving loving comments here. Thank you so much to each and every single person. I’m nothing without your love. Also welcome to all the new followers and all the people who commented while I was on hiatus, I appreciate that you took time to read and leave here your thoughts. I’ll get back to all of you. I can’t wait to read everyone, to see what you guys have been up to while I was away !

One more announcement, Thank you so much for all the awards, It’s an honor to see that you find me worthy of all of em. But I don’t think  I’ll be able to catch up on all of them and I don’t want them to go to waste. So from now on I won’t be accepting any awards. Thank you for thinking of me anyways.

See you and read you soon peeps!
Love,

Zee ❤

I’m Sorry

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Yes yes yes I know I’ve been away for quiet a while. I’m always disappearing on you guys, Don’t I?
I’m sorry, I really am. I miss visiting your blogs and reading what you guys are up to. I’m sorry I’ve not been there quiet often. I haven’t even opened my blog since almost one week. This traveling thing is really getting on my nerves. As most of you already know I get home pretty late, then I’m really tired to do anything.

Meanwhile when I was gone, I was given bunch of awards by pretttyyy Ivy over at Ivy_Mosquito | Love is free, Thank you so much Ivy !

AND Sisterhood of the World Bloggers Award by sweeeeett Lydia over at Lydia Devadason.

AND The Sunshine Award by dear Nanami over at Bunny Slippers !!!!

Whaatttttt??? Oh my God !!! I’ll get crushed under the weight of SO many awards !

Thank you sooo much dear Lydia Nanomi and Ivy. I’m honored that you thought of me for these awards. Again sorry for getting to these late.

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Now on to new posts, after trying to keep up with normal ‘blogging everyday’ thing and failing at it miserably I’ve decided to post every weekend from now on. I’ll do a new post every weekend because that will give me more time to visit all other awesome blogs in week days and will give me time to settle in my tiring routine.

Also I am thinking of adding some new posts ideas. Let’s see how it goes considering how much time I have. (Okay that last line seemed like I’m about to die and writing you guys a goodbye note :/ So to be clear I’m alive and well ! If it didn’t seem like what it sounded to me then please ignore and proceed to read. Another example of how I have tendency to go off topic. )

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One thing I feel MOST guilty about as I have mentioned above is not visiting and reading your posts. I swear that is the most guilty I feel every single day. I mean lets admit it blogging goes both ways. If I could I would stay at your blogs all the time. Just know I try my best so If I miss your posts please forgive me.

I love you for taking time to visit my blog, read my posts and leave your thoughts with me even though I don’t get to visit you that often any more. I’m so grateful to have all of you in my WordPress family and in my life. How did I get so lucky???

Love, Love, Love you !!! ❤ ❤ ❤

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Yes that is how much I love you ! :’)

My First Award

Terry (http://terry1954.wordpress.com/2013/10/04/i-got-an-award/)
had nominated me for my very first award…about a week ago actually but due to my busy schedule I wasn’t able to tend to it.

First of all very thanks to Terry (sorry for posting it this late). Also thanks to her for considering me a part of this word press family:
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She asked me to answer some questions, so here we go:

1-What is the very first thing you do when your eyes open in the morning?
Ans: I check out my mobile phone with one eye open and then contemplate if its worth going to university today. I assure you, Its a very hard decision that I have to make every morning.

2. What is the very last thing you do before you go to bed at nights?
Ans: Turn off the lights? but before that I read a book or listen to music or check out messages on my mobile phone.(As I don’t have time for it anyother time of the day)

3.What can scare the crap out of you faster than anything else?
Ans:
People hiding behind the door or a wall to scare the bejesus out of me.

4-How old were you when you first fell in love?
Ans: Have yet to fall in love. Minor crushes, Yeah. But not really love.

5- Weren’t these questions easy?
Ans: Yes, they were!

Here are the people I’m nominating for this award that have embraced me in this word press family with open arms:

lifebeinggirly
http://lifebeinggirly.com/

A Spoon Full Of Style
http://aspoonfulofstyle.co.uk/

Shetall says
http://shetall.wordpress.com/

Aberrant Lady
http://aberrantkid.wordpress.com/

Snippets Of This Life
http://snippetsofthislife.wordpress.com/

My story to you..
http://dragoneystory.wordpress.com/

Anyway I Digress
http://emmacapell.wordpress.com/

Crow Arrow, Inc.
http://crowarrowinc.wordpress.com/

Peace be upon you!
http://northcountytutoringcenter.com/

The One Thing I know For Sure
http://dianereedwiter.wordpress.com/

Shrouded by Darkness
http://shroudedbydarkness.wordpress.com/

behindthemaskofabuse
http://www.behindthemaskofabuse.com

Twinkling Star (Yasmeen Sana)
http://peacefulmindblog.wordpress.com/

karenbethc
http://www.findingthegracewithin.com

Platform 9-3/4
http://vandysnape.wordpress.com/

gypsysoul..
http://nomadfashionista.wordpress.com

The Indecisive Eejit
http://theindecisiveeejit.wordpress.com

dawnyhosking
http://dawnyhosking.wordpress.com/

My Travels with Depression
http://mytravelswithdepression.wordpress.com/

Here are rules and they are:
1. Ping back to the person who gave you the Award (Me)
2. Display the Award
3. Nominate 10 people you look to as almost Family here on Word Press”

Thank you to EVERYONE for their love and support. Taking their precious time to read my random ramblings and some personal stigma.
I appreciate all your comments, advice and suggestions 🙂