Pain, Love and Magic

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I looked at her as a tide rose in her eyes. She quickly looked down at her hands trying to hide it. I called her by name, holding her chin between my fingers.

She lifted up her head but her eyes betrayed her this time and tears came running down her cheeks. Like a flood which had been kept blocked for far too long, finally broke looking for its much awaited escape. Her tears spilling like rain drops on the palm of my hands.

It hit me, in the deepest part of my chest. Like her soul was being sliced open right in front of my eyes.

And In that moment, I wanted, I needed magic to exist. I wanted to let her know that happiness existed. I wanted her to know happiness and nothing else. For her to taste it on her tongue and breathe it in like air. I wanted her to smile at me with the laugh that sounded nothing less than poetry. To look at me with those bright eyes that made my stomach unfurl.

God, I couldn’t see her like that. She didn’t deserve this. Why did she have to suffer so much? In that moment in time, I had never wanted anything more in my life than for magic to exist.

I wanted, I needed her to know that I loved her. With all my heart and every ounce of strength, I would love her. Every second, every minute, every hour of the day. Till the end of times, I would love her. Till all she would know is my love. Till all that consumed her would be my love and not sadness, not pain, not suffering.

I wanted her to know I would love her even if the stars stopped shinning or the moon went dark or the sun lost it warmth. I would love her still…. with all my heart. Always.


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36 thoughts on “Pain, Love and Magic

  1. Saadia Peerzada says:

    Magic exists, right here , right now, in my eyes going over these words and they create this ache which is a sign of true art, that stirs something in you.
    You make me nostalgic for the things I’ve never known.
    Zee, this is brilliant.

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  2. Prajakta says:

    Zee…Oh My God!!! Can I send you a virtual hug?? It is so good so see your words again! I HAVE missed you. I hope you are okay now.

    There is a magic in your words as well and how subtly the relationships shimmer in your words. One will be very lucky to have such loved ones around.

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  3. Mabel Kwong says:

    ‘I looked at her as a tide rose in her eyes.’ That opening line. Wow. What a way to describe tears falling and that feeling of being overwhelmed – it comes over you so sudden and it’s often strong that you can’t push away…like how you can never stop a tide from rolling up the shore of a beach. To love and to be loved and loved over and over again…now that is one magic feeling between two people. Here, have a chocolate bar, Zee 🍫☺️😍

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    • Zee says:

      Awww thank you so much Mabel. I’m already chomping on that chocolate bar you gave me 😉 *nom nom* ☺️

      It’s a magical feeling isn’t it? To be loved so selflessly and with such fervour ? Something everyone deserve to feel at least once in a lifetime 🙂

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    • Zee says:

      Ah yes. That’s the point isn’t it? If we can’t literally take away the pain we can at least share it, and provide a shoulder to lean on. It makes all the difference in the world, what love is about. Thanks josh 🙂

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  4. katiemiafrederick says:

    SMiLes.. mY FriEnd Zee..
    for Human Love
    and NoW all
    the nuances
    of that Emotion
    above are truly
    MaGiC for there
    is no science
    or pill now
    that
    Creates a
    MaGiC oF LoVe
    For Love is Art
    For Love is Truth
    For Love we Make
    LiFELiGhT within no longer GroWinG NoW
    DiM.. and the thing about MaGiC is it is not Free
    For Love is a Life Long Art and Exercise of HeART
    that we must never end for Love that is Real.. i lost
    all my positive Emotions for 66 months and even
    Fear and even the memory of if i had ever
    smiled at all as at core.. emotions
    are memories
    and
    memories
    are emotions
    it’s not to understand
    there is a hell when one goes
    to that place beyond pain of numb with no point of return.. too..
    thing is.. when one comes back one understands that ‘other place’..
    i regained my emotions first in the art of writing and the memory of
    long lost grief in photos from decades before.. i retain and strengthen
    my emotions through the art of movement as it is through our body
    that we experience emotions as feeling sensing life.. so true
    the first
    step
    of losing
    love is sitting
    still.. and the second
    step is not connecting to others
    in flesh and blood face to face in
    non-verbal language as well as spoken
    words and the third step in losing love is
    in not creating love anew in art pass the Science
    of Life we are now expected to be.. it’s true School
    kills love as children sit still and become data download
    machines the same at Work and if the Human Race does not
    learn to Dance and Sing together hand in hand cheek to cheek
    and hip to hip.. misery will continue to enjoy company far far away
    from
    the
    Gold
    of Love..
    i exercise my
    heART as an Olympic
    Sport for i know without it i am nothing at all without LoVE..
    True Hell is not fire then.. Hell is numb now with no Direction..
    A SoUL of SPiRiT no longer a Star.. BLack wHole Soul dies as LiFE…
    Thanks for sharing ‘The SonG’ as Songs and Dances that/who FeeL NoW
    AnD SeNsE WiLL be seen and heard foreverNoW aWaY From AbysS eVeN More..:)

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  5. Erika Kind says:

    This amazingly touching, Zee. Your words touch my soul and then listening to the song opens the flood gates…. very touching! Sometimes it is unbelievable how others suffer and don’t see the beauty we see in them and what would we give to let them look through our eyes.
    I did not know this version of the song but I have to say I like it a lot better than Adele’s. It goes even deeper!!

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    • Zee says:

      Exactly, thank you Erika. There’s beauty in pain too. But only few eyes can see it, and even fewer hearts can feel it in the other person. I wish there was a way to let everyone who’s ever been in pain see the beauty growing inside them.
      And yes, Im glad you appreciated the song as much as I did. Like I said to Rob, Adele maybe great at singing but for this song I’d say this version takes the lead. Too much feels and too beautifully delivered ! I’m so happy that you felt it too♥️

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  6. trentpmcd says:

    Wow Zee, this is fantastic. And, of course, the song works so well with it. Thinking of “Make You Feel My Love”, one of the things so great about these posts of yours is that you do make me feel them. It would be great to have that magic, so when we see one in pain we could reach out, from no matter how far away, touch them and draw the pain away. Anyway, another great post.

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    • Zee says:

      Aah how great that would be. To share someone’s pain, to reach in and just rid them of this heavy burden that they don’t deserve. Thank you for the compliment Trent. At the end of the day isn’t that what’s writing/poetry is about? To make you feel something? 🙂 I’m glad you liked the song as well, it’s very close to me. Thanks again ♥️

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      • trentpmcd says:

        You are right, making someone feel what you are feeling is one of the things poetry and writing are about. Writing is a way to communicate our emotions over a distance and through time. I think you communicate those emotions very well, and amazingly you have just been getting better over the time I’ve known you.

        Writing also lets us do that magic and share the pain, if only to a small extent. When you share your pain, I can feel something of what you are feeling no matter the distance. Then I can write back and tell you what a bittersweet experience it is to read the words. One the one side, knowing the pain makes me sad and want it to go away (bitter), but on the other side seeing the talent of being able to create such powerful feelings with the words you use sweet). Perhaps, perhaps the gentle words can act as a gentle touch and soak up some of the pain, just as the act of committing it to “paper”, putting it in words must help.

        I know the song well, but I don’t think I’ve heard this version (I might have – it is very familiar). It worked very well with the “poem”.

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        • Zee says:

          Well it’s friends like you who are here to listen and read my words in whichever form I present- pain or love or suffering, I am able to share my feelings so freely without the fear of judgment. It’s quiet a blessing. Always so thankful for this community ☺️

          And this song might be seeming familiar to you cuz Adele sang it as well. And as we all know she’s a maestro ! But for this song I’d say this version is in the league of its own. Beats Adele, which is a rarity ! 😄

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    • Zee says:

      Ah yes, very rare to find a selfless kind of love. Thank you Rob. This is one of my most favourite songs. Adele sang this song as well, but as a rarity I would say, ‘sleeping at last’ cover is way better. ☺️😍

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