It’s funny how it works, your heart breaks into million little pieces, with sharp edges and cracks are everywhere. You try to pick up those pieces and in the process you cut your hands. So now your hands are bleeding. You get up to wash it and as you stand your feet come in contact with those sharp edges and now your feet are bleeding too. The pain gets unbearable and you fall uncontrollably on those scattered pieces. Now your whole body is covered with wounds, you are bleeding everywhere, every inch of your body is hurting. The pain is unimaginable now but you don’t have any other choice but to get up. Sometimes you wait for a helping hand to pick you up and put on some bandage, lend a soothing touch but you don’t have that luxury either so you try to get up yourself. You stumble and fall, cutting yourself deeper than you did before. Every try you make to stand up only ends up hurting you more but you do it anyway. You stand after all that struggle and manage to get yourself into a corner, Away from those scattered pieces,where you cry endless tears, trying to get hold of this pain that is consuming you. Slowly but surely the bleeding starts to stop, the wounds are still fresh though. You remember you’ve got a heart to mend, so you make your way towards those scattered pieces again. You notice by now some pieces are missing. You frantically search but all in vain so you decide to go ahead without them. You put all those pieces together bit by bit, like pieces of some puzzle, trying to figure out which piece goes where, which piece fits perfectly and which doesn’t have a place anymore,The pieces which are damaged beyond repair. You put days in days trying to put it all together and in the end you have this poorly patched heart, that is missing pieces, that still have cracks on it, unrecognizable. Worst is the missing spaces you have in between, where emptiness lingers. But you have to fill it up with something so sadness comes to help. She makes home in those spaces called ruins. Making herself feel at home, seeping into those oh so familiar spaces, residing and slowly taking over the whole heart. The heart is repaired at last..but it’s forever changed, not the same as before. Never can be and never will be…
It still aches from time to time, sadness becomes too overwhelming and the scars look too ugly. They say It’s up to you whether you wear those scars proudly or hide them underneath a patch. Whether you let the sadness take over or turn it into a beautiful work of art. They say It’s up to you but unfortunately it’s never as easy as that.
Awesome! Absolutely! What’s amazing is that I’ve read it in my current frame of mind… Fantastic writing! Do take a look at what I posted today, in many ways it’s an echo of this wonderful piece.
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Thanks a lot for the read. Will check out yours soon! 🙂
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…and be sure to tell me if you identify and what you think!
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Wow….poignant to the core.
” Worst is the missing spaces you have in between, where emptiness lingers. But you have to fill it up with something so sadness comes to help. She makes home in those spaces called ruins. Making herself feel at home, seeping into those oh so familiar spaces, residing and slowly taking over the whole heart. The heart is repaired at last..but it’s forever changed, not the same as before. Never can be and never will be…”
Simply brilliant. I had to let this all sink and savour it. This is beautiful.
This reminded me of an essay-styled short story I wrote, Lose Me Not. Whenever I am down, my mind swirls around these thoughts and I try to find hope amidst all of it. At the end of the day, I have to strive further for myself, and life is and always will be a struggle. 🙂
Thank you for sharing this. ❤
With love,
SKY
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Oh wow, Thanks Seemen for giving this a read.. I’m glad you understood the sentiment and were able to relate. Thank you for your wonderful comment. This is one of those pieces of writing that is extremely personal and close to my heart for various reasons.. 🙂
I hope you come back for more. See ya soon. Much love,
Zee ❤
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Wow.I’m actually out of words Zee!This is a result of some deep thinking.I felt your pain as I read through the post.I must say you are someone who can make the most beautiful things out of pain.I’m sorry you are having to go through this time.I hope and pray that you see good times soon.
Loads of hugs and love to you,my one and only WordPress Sweetheart <3. (Too cheesy eh? 😛 )
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Cheesy what??? You actually put the hugest smile on my face baby! ^.^
I can’t thank you enough for all the love you extend towards me, I come here and reading comments like yours make everything better for me. I love you for that! ❤
You be my WordPress sweetheart too ❤
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Aww.. ❤ ❤ ❤
I love you too Zee.I'm glad that I could make you smile. ^^' Yes I'd love to be your wordpress sweetheart ❤
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Yaeyyy, you be my sweet heart and I be yours, together it will be us against the world ! Hehehe see I even made a poem! 😀
Reminded me of this song “Hey, soul sister’ by Train, have you heard it? 🙂
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Aww that is really sweet.That gave me an idea!Maybe we could do a collab sometime.Yeah I love that song! 😀
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Ooh yess, That sounds like a great idea. It’s been a while since I wrote something, maybe it will inspire me to write! Let’s do it..as soon as possible! ^.^
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wow, who needs Bob Marley when we have you, kudos.
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Haha, That was very generous of you! Thanks Akhiz 🙂
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Perfect. Brava. Brava. Clap clap. You know what got me here though is taking away your attention of your heart pain through something else even like physical pain. I had that cut like a knife pain inmy heart before. 😉 Though, I’m the kind of guy who always recover easily. 😉 You are so right though. No matter how fixed you are, you’re. Never the same.
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What’s the key to recovering quickly? Care to share some of your tips, The Recovery God Rommel! 😀 Lol
Thanks a ton Rommel for reading this and leaving such generous words of appreciation !! I really really appreciate it ❤
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Hi Zee, I’ve missed reading your talented writing..this one is very profound and so deep in describing heartbreak. Anyways, wanted to stop by and say Merry Christmas and wishing you a happy, healthy and fulfilling 2015! 🙂 XO, Violet
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Hey there Violet ! It’s been so long, How are you? Thank you so much for popping in and sending sweet wishes my way. It puts a smile on my face that you thought of me.
Wish you happy holidays and an incredible new year full of content and joy! ❤
Lots of love,
Zee ❤
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Zee, I completely agree that it’s never as easy as that. The heart is its own beast and will rarely allow itself to be tamed. Hugs for you, beautiful lady. It may not make sense now but your weakness makes you strong. You’ll soar in spite of this. Of that I am certain. 🙂
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Thank you so much Tony for wise words. Your comments are always warmly reassuring to my heart. I appreciate it more than you know!
Hope you are having a great Christmas! Happy holidays and Wish you an incredible year ahead ❤
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“You notice by now some pieces are missing. You frantically search but all in vain so you decide to go ahead without them”
Omygod, zee.
That’s such a painfully beautiful post. With the kind of words that screech and wound and *show* themselves, as if pain was a river and these letters flowed directly and coherently with them– striking the right chords.
The part where sadness comes and makes home in those broken, empty parts and the entire “definition” of the process until the very end. The last lines. It’s masterfully put, that’s all I can say.
Love! ❤
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Aah you put is so perfectly, ‘As if pain was a river and these letter flowed…’ cuz I guess that is exactly what happened.
Thank you so so so much Twinny for reading and leaving me with such sweet compliment, Love you ❤
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Love ya more, zee! ❤ I *had* to read this one 😉 And you don't need to thank me so, it's always a pleasure reading you! Honest. 😀
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Awwie then you say stuff like that ! ❤
Love you too moon and back ❤
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My Zee..you write so poignantly beautiful..”you are never the same…”..so true…
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My Saya..Thank you so very much for reading 🙂 ❤
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someone who breaks your heart is a loser. he’d regret it for the rest of his life.
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Oh no Plaridel, It’s not THAT kind of heartbreak, no need to blame a guy who doesn’t exist ! Haha 🙂
But thank you so much for sticking up for me, I know I can count on you 😉
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Beautiful and so true. Life is indeed ugly and reality is uglier and sometimes being strong is the only option left 😦
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That’s right, but as i said it’s never as easy that, to be strong is easier said than done 😦
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i understand that so correctly
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Thank you for reading 🙂 ❤
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Oh, this is so, so beautiful, Zee. ❤
You write in such an eloquent manner; I immediately connected with the raw honesty of your words. Your figurative language displays more depth than simple language, and I admire your introspection and reflection of such a traumatic experience.
Simply beautiful. Very haunting.
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Oh wow, thank you so much Ramisa ! That was very kind of you, I really appreciate you taking time to read and leaving such a heart touching comment behind. Thanks a lot for this ❤ ❤
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Wow Zee, you described that feeling perfectly and I recognized myself in this text too but remember that there comes a time when you find the strenght and will to feel better and start loving yourself again! You have a beautiful soul ❤ :* Lots of love
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Aah I’m waiting for the strength to come Nad, Thank you so much for your such sweet words, I really appreciate your support and all the love, I really appreciate it, I hope you know that ❤
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Trust me! It will get better! Take it from a person who have been so depressed 2-3 years but I can proudly say that I’m feeling much better and loving myself again. I don’t need toxic people in my life saying I’m worth less than I am! As in heartbreaks some wounds never heal completely but we learn to accept it some day! You know I’m always here for you! You are my shoty bhen here ❤ Stay strong Zee and it will be alright ❤ ❤
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Awwwh Thank you so much for your reassuring words Nad, I can’t thank you enough for your constant support and bucking me up ! Always giving me valuable advises as an older sister, I’ll keep all of that in mind ❤
P.S you wrote Choti behan as 'Shoty' and It made me think of 'Shawty' like that in songs, "Shawty got some moves" haha 😀
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No worries sweety! haha yes i’m not the best in spelling when it comes to Urdu because Swedish is my first language and we can just speak Urdu haha ^^ you got moves like Jagger 😉 haha ❤
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Ah great now you got my hips moving with that song ! lol 😀
Naw I was just kidding Nad, Thanks a lot for considering me as your little sister. Since I don’t any sister and always wanted one. I’m humbled to have you as one ! 🙂
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Hahah mission accomplished! No worries Zee, as long as you are happy that’s all that matters ❤
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The heart is repaired, but yes, forever changed – but isn’t that better than always staying the same? I want my heart to have battle scars and chunks missing – it shows I lived and loved my life! 🙂
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Aah I came and conquered, huh! That works too Kate, very positive thoughts, I like it! 🙂
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I can relate to this.. it perfectly summed up what i am feeling nowadays. loved it zee.
btw how are you dear? 🙂 it’s been a while aye?!!!
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Hey there Upasana! Thanks a lot for reading 🙂
I’m alright, how are you? Haven’t seen you around or was it just me?! So glad to see you here 🙂 ❤
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Idk i was lost i guess hehe.. I thought of you yesterday and that it has been a while i have seen you. So i went on your blog and read this 🙂
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Awh I checked out your blog too for new posts yesterday and loved the new look of your blog, so cute ! just as adorable as you are ❤ 😀
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Awhh hahaha thanks dear 🙂 Merry Christmas 🙂
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It was My pleasure ! ❤
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Yes, the heart is repaired and changed forever. It’s unfortunate that it happens that way, but it does. The worst part about it, is that we feel so alone when we’re going through it. I think that you can tell from your blogging community how people feel about you. Whoever you find and make yours will be a very lucky person, be assured of that. 💓💓💓
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Thanks Rob for always being so kind to me and understanding too ! Your words are warmly reassuring to me. I really appreciate it ❤
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Yours is a wonderfully touching allegory, describing the process perfectly… But it’s sad to know that only through pain can you achieve such insight…
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Yes this is exactly what I was thinking today, I wouldn’t write like this if I hadn’t experienced it. Thank you for reading Ana, I really appreciate your insight 🙂
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You are WAY too young to have experienced this much pain. It isn’t fair….. I wish I could take your pain away Zee. It does get better though. Of that I can attest to!
I’m glad you have found a way to express it through your writing. This is the second blog in 2 days I have read about such heartache. I wish you peace and joy my dear! Rock on!~
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Hey there Courtney, Thank you very much for your reassuring words, that was very helping. Writing is indeed the only way I get it out, it’s an escape, I don’t know what I’d do without it. So thank you for taking time to read and leave a beautiful comment with me 🙂
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Beautifully sad!
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Thanks Jithin for giving this a read and leaving a comment 🙂 ❤
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🙂
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My heart breaks just reading your words, Zee. Such a strong expression of your pain and sadness.
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Thank you for reading Trent and leaving behind your thoughts. It’s a form of support for me so I really appreciate it 🙂
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I hope every bit of support helps 🙂
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It does 🙂
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That’s really profound yet speaks deeply of sadness Zee… 😦
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Thank you for reading Andy 🙂
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My pleasure Zee, Always looking forward to your posts 🙂
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Always so kind 🙂 ❤
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❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ 🙂
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Wohoo sooo many hearts!! ^.^
⭐
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For you! 💙💚💜💛💛😉
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Man you’ve got an abundance of them hearts, Hehe Thank you!
❤
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I reserve them only for the one that made my entire year an amazing one ❤ ❤ ❤ 🙂
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Right back at ya then! ❤ ❤ ❤ ^^'
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💜💜💜💜😆
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